The past three weeks have been hard on my brain.
Because I was training for my new job. And I was having to learn a lot. And I *ahem* have this thing where I want to hit the ground running from moment one and have everything down.
And that's not happening.
Training was full time. Today was my first day with my part time hours.
It was odd to not be there first thing in the morning...
It was odd to leave while others were still working, but it was nice to go home before dark.
So how is it going?
That is what I keep telling myself...that in a month, I'll be smoother... In a month, I won't be asking so many questions... That even though I highly doubted it, I actually did learn things the past few weeks.
Today, I wasn't as scared as I was on Friday...when my boss yanked off my training wheels and said go for it! And while I felt like he yanked those things off...I know that he was right there and so were my co-workers...they are all terrific people that I enjoy being around... So I figure the scared level will keep tapering off. I'm just practicing breathing and taking pressure off myself and know that time will pass and it'll all be good. And trusting that I haven't forgotten as much as I think I have...
On Friday, I checked our account and...TA-DA! I had a paycheck! During all my self-imposed stress, I had forgotten they were going to pay me!
I realized that I've been doing volunteer stuff for a long time, so..the concept of getting paid for time away from home got pushed to the side.
This will be good for me.
As long as my time with my daughters doesn't create an issue.
A re-welcome to the workforce to me!